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Elephant Love Medley

Ewan: Love is a many splendored thing, Love lifts us up where we belong, All you need is Love
Nicole: Please, don’t start that again
Ewan: All you need is Love
Nicole: A girl has got to eat
Ewan: All you need is Love
Nicole: She’ll end up on the street
Ewan: All you need is Love
Nicole: Love is just a game
Ewan: I was made for loving you baby, You were made for loving me
Nicole: The only way of loving me baby, Is to pay a lovely fee
Ewan: Just one night, Just one night
Nicole: There’s no way, Cause you can’t pay
Ewan: In the name of Love, One night in the name of Love
Nicole: You crazy fool, I won’t give in to you
Ewan: Don’t…leave me this way, I can’t survive, Without your sweet Love, Oh baby, don’t leave me this way
Nicole: You’d think that people would have had enough of silly Love songs
Ewan: I look around me, And I see it isn’t so, no
Nicole: Some people wanna fill the world with silly Love songs
Ewan: Well, what’s wrong with that? I’d like to know, Cause, here I go again!
Love lifts us up where we belong, Where eagles fly on a mountain high
Nicole: Love makes us act like we are fools, Throw our lives away, For one happy day
Ewan: We could be heroes, Just for one day
Nicole: You, you will be mean
Ewan: No, I won’t
Nicole: And I…I’ll drink all the time
Ewan: We should be lovers
Nicole: We can’t do that
Ewan: We should be lovers, And that’s a fact
Nicole: Though nothing will keep us together
Ewan: We could steal time, Just for one day
Both: We could be heroes, Forever and ever,
We could be heroes, Forever and ever, We could be heroes
Ewan: Just because I will always Love You
Nicole: I can’t help loving you…How wonderful life is
Both: Now, you’re in the world
Placido Domingo: La forza dell’amor ( the power/force of Love )

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Decisions, decisions, decisions…

As I mentioned before…I am currently in California helping train the staff at The Barkley Pet Hotel and Day Spa. I work at The Barkley in Cleveland and the owner flew me and my roommate (who also works at The Barkley) here to help with the opening. The front desk staff here are awesome, but lack so much in training despite my boss’ efforts over the last 8 weeks. And I only have 5 days with them…Monday-Friday. Now my boss wants/needs me to stay to basically hold the front desk together and continue with the training. I’d love to – but I just don’t know. I miss my bed, my boyfriend, my kitteh…but on the other hand they NEED me here. Like, forreals (not even forfakes). I wouldn’t mind it…but I just don’t know exactly what to do.

I work at 3 places; The Barkley, Old Navy, and Bob Evans. Bob Evans is expecting me to show up for work on Sunday (our flight is scheduled to come back to Cleveland on Saturday), and The Barkley is expecting me to show up for work on Monday, and Old Navy is expecting me to show up on Sunday with my availability. I would piss off a looooot of people if I didn’t come home on Saturday, and probably lose one of the 3 jobs (well, that may not be true…but Bob Evans and Old Navy are pretty frustrated with my lack of availability; and I know that The Barkley wouldn’t fire me lol).

Decisions, decisions, decisions….

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Snug as a bug in a rug

Sometimes there is nothing in the world that could even come close to the feeling of being held by someone who cares about you. Right now is one of those times.

I just worked a 15 hour day….15 hours straight with no break. I’m in California helping train new staff members at my workplace. It’s awesome being here, but I really miss my boyfriend. And after my suuuuuper long day today, all I want to do is crawl into bed with him and wrap myself up in his arms. There’s this place, right on his chest, where my head fits perfectly. And when I can feel his arms around me and my head in that spot, there’s nothing in the world that I could even need to make things better.  He makes me feel like the luckiest girl in the world, just by holding me. It’s an incredible feeling; very little even comes close to comparing.

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Tequila

You know what I love? Tequila. Unless it’s well-tequila….that shit’s nasty.

But give me some Patron, hell – I’ll even take Cuervo, and it’s like Frank the Tank once said: “Once it hits your lips, it’s so good!”

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And so it begins…

I’ve been really wanting to start a blog for a while, so I tried back in January when I was a nanny. That worked for a few months until they put their kid into daycare and I lost my job. I want to blog – I want people to read my blog and think I’m funny and clever, and just enjoy my thoughts and ramblings. I used to be a HUGE blogger and would blog all the time about all the stupid trivial things that I found important in high school…and for a little bit in college, but then it just got less important. Not that what I have to say is any more important now than it was 5 years ago…I just miss it.

And so much has changed in 5 years. 5 years ago I thought that Kevin was the ONE, and that we were going to get married and have adorable babies and life was going to be perfect and that I was going to be a preschool teacher forever. But life isn’t perfect – Kevin and I have been broken up for 6 months and I lost my preschool teacher job 10 months ago. I still look fondly on my memories and time with Kevin, but it’s time to move on. I think we both fell out of love with each other a while ago, but kept going because we were comfortable and it was good enough. Then good enough just didn’t work – it couldn’t work – anymore. It’s really disappointing and shitty when that happens, but what can you do? (My friend Meryl has some really great thoughts on this actually…) Since December 2009 I just keep reminding myself that “It is what it is” and that “There’s no use in crying over spilled milk.” The past is the past and you can’t do a damn thing to change it, so why dwell? Why continue putting yourself through hell or leaning on the past to get you through the present? When the past was great but the present sucks, you have to focus on making the present better however you can – and typically it’s not by living in the past.

So here’s to the future. The future of me, Jessi Dumas. Whatever my future holds, whoever my future has waiting for me – I’m ready. I’m ready for the challenge, and I’m ready to make it work in whatever way needs to be done. Life is too short, you have to enjoy what you can now – live your life and don’t pass up opportunities that will keep you playing the “What if” game later on in life. Who knows where I’ll be in the next 5 years, but wherever it does…I’m ready. Are you?

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